Not Now, Maybe Never
Sometimes they hold hands when no one is looking. It’s a ridiculously sentimental gesture and it embarrasses them both, but they do it just the same. Fingers entwine and, for a moment, expressions soften and a look of love enters their eyes as they steal a glance at each other. Then the contact is broken and their eyes resume an expression of mutual antipathy. It’s too soon for anyone to know about what’s happening between them. Maybe it will always be too soon. So for now, and maybe forever, they will exchange covert glances and sneak off to secret rendezvous. It’s best this way, they both agree on that. After all, it’s one thing for Willow to love Tara; no one is ready to accept that Xander loves Spike.